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Date:	2006-06-09 12:06
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Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative

WOW.... I'm still alive after everything that I have done. Actually not only am I alive I'm doin good. So.... if anyone is wondering what happened to me I went to prison. Itwas over some bullshit, but that is what I get for surrounding myself with bullshit people. I only had to do a year....But it is always so weird gettin out after jus a little time. This world still seems so different to me. but it beats being caged like a animal! though I lucked out, I found me the most wonderful woman right before i left. She was my rock that keep my from drowning while I was away. She is truly my savior. O, well i'll update more later.

Date:	2004-08-06 17:27
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished

i am alive and i hit a smith grind for the first time today... yah 4 me

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Date:	2004-06-15 23:49
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained

Its funny how life plays so many games on us, are is it just that life likes to fuck with me. Partially I can say that I do make many dumb ass decisions, but how come they all come back to bite me, I don't even get a fuckin grace period. Anyway I felt like writing a poem but i am not near any paper so here we go...


It was that day, where were our backs break on that piece of yarn. 6/14/04

Maybe if i had just gotten up on the right side of the bed,
My heart would not feel so cold, so dead.
Yet, would that have changed that my shoulders feel weighted down by a ton of lead?
The chill from my frozen heart creeps thtough my body, o how it spreads.
Then, I realize that no matter how many times the script of this day was rewrote
It would still contain my one famous quote
"This day I end all cares, I stop trying to pretend,
Let fate take me by the hand and lead me around the bend."
I've said this in variations before, but tonight I speak the truth no lies,
I shall turn my back, close all doors, and severe all ties.
I wish to find some rock to go run and hide,
And my time I shall dutifully bide
Until the day I taste my last breath,
Until the day I find my release, my death.

* i really did get this off using the little word magnets to come up with this phrase.

Refigartor Ramplings... (undated)

Dream of me with frantically bitter lustings, for sadness incubates in your head though, only for i wanted my sordid eternity to be spent drunk in my shadowy void of death.

My Anger Receding...(Undated)

This is a body full of bitterness, anger, and pain
And the tears fall from my eyes like drops of scattering rain.
Many try to judge me, many try to emlate me,
Yet, to all I say "Just let me be."

This is a body full of bitterness, anger, and pain
Full of scars that I could never explain.
Every aspect of me is a visible represation
of my place is our fucked up civilation.

This is a body full of bitterness, angr and pain
These holes in my flesh, above just being fashion, are to train
My body to no longer feel sensation,
To no longer feel the sadness of emotion

This is a body fullof bitterness , anger, and pain.
This is a body full of bitterness, anger, and pain.

Date:	2004-05-01 10:07
Subject:	New beginning
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable

It came to my attention last night that I really haven't but this livejournal to use. I rarely post and when I do it is always when I'm feeling bad and down. Okay maybe once or twice I wrote during good times but those are few and far between...So my new idea (inspired by my roommate Alex) is to use this journal like I originally intended, for my art, for my poetry. I would still love to hear comment, reflections on my writings. Critism is always welcome with deaf ears...lol. Enjoy!

Date:	2004-04-30 13:38
Subject:	Sweet
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished

So lets, see I up and move to Davis, I've meet nothing but really cool people and within of one week to the day of me moving to Davis, I've already found a full time job, and someone I may end up dating. Life is good. Now I can focus on other pressing issues, like getting my friend to unerstand I didn't steal his credit card. I feel kind of bad cause I but that conflict on the back burner of my life. Yet i did have way more pressing matters. Like waht party I was gonna go to. Nah, j/k in a way. I had to worry about things like finding a room to stay at. And the like. It feels good to know i shall hava 9-5 and I won't have so much free time on my hands.

You know if anyone wanted to find me for any reason, I'm always in borders after 5, in some corner readng a book...Drinking my coffee, and writing.

Date:	2004-04-26 18:13
Subject:	I'm dirty....
Security:	Public
Mood:	devious

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

Date:	2004-04-26 18:04
Subject:	Just an update for all my fans out there
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

So yeah, I'm in Davis, Ca fo rall of you who don't already know. And I love it. It's so much chiller than anywhere I have been. Yeah there are still some assholes out there but then again where aren't there assholes in this fucked up world? I've also meet some pretty cool people, including this SUPER hot girl named Lauren. She seems pretty chill considering I meet her in Borders Books. Lol That seems to be the spot to go from now on! Atleast if I meet them there you know that they are literate. Anyho... my life has been going a lot better and i hope everyones has been going just as good. Take care all.

To all who read these, I know I most sound pretty lame. Well I am... but my life is looking up. I have been doing a lot of job hunting, and I even found a place to stay for atleast a month. The house isn't the best of places, but it really beats a park table! The dude who I stay with is a big tweak (does crystal meth) but still seems to be a chill guy. I've been trying to take better care of my body and have been hitting the gym atleast 3 times a week. For free too. I had a pretty cool 4:20. All I did was get high, o and I took some mushrooms. They werew kick ass. Well to every one I love you all take care.

Date:	2004-04-14 16:58
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

it's funny that for every small step my life takes forward something causes me to jump back five more. I have a question for all my readers out there; do u think I am wrong for telling my now exgirlfriend that I would never go back out with her, because she feels it is to hard to be with me and watch me be homeless, and struggling? I don't. In my mind if you can't stick with someone through the hard times why should they share the good times with you? I can at the same time feel for her, I just don't have time to deal with this, their are way more inmportant things going on in my life, like trying to find myself some kind of work. Cause plain and simple I'm tired of sleeping in a fucking park. If a job would just land in my lap, I would be so grateful, I would never fuck up again. Never. I just need one fucking chance, but I can't wait for it to come to me I need to go find it.

Arggggggggg!!!!!
Damn i feel much better now.

You know toda i actually got off my ass and went and looked for a job. It felt different to go out their and do something instead of sit and hope. I even go all GQ'd to do it. I went to Walnut Creek and that area, and Monday I plan to go and hit every mall at Sun Valley asd back along Contra Costa. Anyho. To all who still read these i wish to say hi.

Its funny how life has its way of making things really uncomfortable for you. I'm surrounded by fake people everywhere, my true friend I don't even talk to anymore. I really want to change my life around but I can't stop running in circles long enough to know where to begin. Well actually I'm not really running in circles its more like spirals, swirling downward. I've tried to take my life twice this month alone, sad part is I can't do anything right. I can't even keep the one person who keeps me happy. Instead I'm probably gonna lose her to some dick in new york pathetic huh. I'm thinking of checking myself into a menal hospital, because i really have some issues. Well actually i dont want to type anymore so yeah.